Times of Transition

I feel like I’m on the verge of something. Like inspiration is just out of my reach but so, so close.  I see things and there is this weird spark of inspiration/recognition, but then it is gone.  This certainly feels like a time of transition and maybe this is an indication that something big is on the horizon.

It has been a long 15 months since we lost Shiloh and 6 months since we lost Jessie. Strange to think I should be due in a month. Anyway, this sent me on a long path of depression & anxiety which led to a season of introspection. It feels like I long ago lost who I am and I would really like to find myself again. Read more

On Blight

I feel like this is becoming more and more a year of blight. On my garden, of my body, in my soul, around the world. Like the life is draining out and I am powerless to stop it. I lived it so long that I never really noticed, but today it struck me. I simply went out to my back yard with a basket and scissors and I came back with some vegetables and a head full of this. It is a funny thing when clarity strikes. The hard becomes simpler while the simple becomes harder. Read more

I Miscarried And I Can’t Tell Anyone

I Miscarried

Our dearest Baby,

Please know that we love you and wanted you very much. We tried for over a year to have you. I even quit my job so the physical strain wouldn’t continue to keep you from us, despite the impossibility of our budget.

When we found out about you, we were so excited. We wanted to tell everybody. We could have screamed it from the rooftops.

But we couldn’t tell anyone. Read more

First Quarter Review 2016

We are just three months into 2016 and it has already been quite a year. As always my word of the year – Refocus – has been more of a challenge than I anticipated. The point of refocusing was to take the time to find where I am and where I would really like to go. In reality, it has been very difficult to really focus on anything.2016


In the first days of January, I unexpectedly lost a very good friend to cancer. She was only 44 and so full of life. Laura Looman was one of the strongest Christians I knew and I am certain that she is now singing exuberantly in the heavenly choir. In our last conversation, she was so looking forward to getting her heavenly mansion and she certainly earned it. I rejoice with her, but all of us left here are mourning our loss of such a faithful and loving friend. It still isn’t fully real that she is gone. Also, she was one of this blog’s biggest supporters, and I have found it nearly impossible to write since then. Read more

Word of the Year

Word of the day

It seems like every year we are pushed to make New Year’s resolutions. Everyone is doing it and you should too because you need improvement, or else. I am picturing a 4-inch tall Egyptian slave driver with a whip on my right shoulder.

The thing is, New Year’s resolutions do not work–at least not for me. Every year I would make the same resolutions and nothing ever really came of it. Have you ever had that problem? If you haven’t, let us know your secret in the comments.

A few years ago I saw a post about forgoing a resolution and instead picking a word of the year. It sounded like an intriguing idea. Basically, you pick a word and use it to choose the direction of your year. I have done this for three years now and it has been a bit more successful though it hasn’t been without its challenges. Read more

A New Day Is Dawning

A New Day

I feel it necessary to apologise to you, dear reader. Things have been crazy and I have been neglecting to write to you, but I promise that I have not forgotten you. The thing is, I have been busy making big changes in my life.

I QUIT MT JOB! My “real” job. The unappreciative and demoralizing retail job I have held and hated for the last 13 years. No, I do not have another job lined up, I just quit. It isn’t really that simple, but that is the gist of it. Obviously that brings up some questions and I will try to answer some of them here. Read more


Hi, my name is Meagan. I am at a transition point in my life and feel like I’m stalled on a precipice. I am 30 with 31 coming up in a week, and I’m still trying to decide what to do with my life. Do you ever feel like that?

Why “in the between”?

In a way, every part of life is in between something. At the very least, between birth and death, but there are also small and large stages and seasons that define you life. My professional life is in a transition stage. I have worked at the same job for almost 10 years, and it is clear that it isn’t going anywhere and I should be leaving soon. God willing, I will graduate at the end of April with a Bachelor’s Degree in finance and what I really need is a real job. My personal life is also stalled. I am currently single but have sworn off dating for this season. I guess I am still waiting for God direction before I make any big changes on either of these fronts.

Why blog?

I suppose I am hoping that it will bring clarity to my life, and hopefully help others on their journey. Maybe it will chronicle a transition period. Maybe it will just be a place to post pictures to link to on Pinterest. Either way, I may not have a real direction but I have a start and that is often the hardest and most important part. I enjoy making crafts; cooking, baking, and canning; outdoor activities; and traveling to Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. More than likely, a bit of all of that will make it into here. I can guarantee it will be a journey, and hopefully in the end we will find our way.

Ecclesiastes 3: A Time for Everything

1There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under the heavens:

2 a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.